Today’s gospel talked about the suffering man with a withered hand (See Luke 6:8)
God always knows what our hearts are going through, and shows us how tender He needs to be with us. It’s not just our withered limb that is at stake, but our spiritual life.
We can’t surrender to our spiritual death, even if it feels like it’s our only option. It isn’t we have a choice..
It’s our heart that needs the most healing.
I haven’t always been willing to offer Him the parts of my grief that were the hardest for me.
I didn’t know if I would extend and open my heart, what was going to happen.
If I opened that part of me it would require trust and surrender, but I didn’t know if I could trust Him to heal me.
It has taken me a long time to get to a place of trust.
Saturday morning I was gifted with time to spend with my Red Bird mamas prayerfully planning our grieving mother’s retreat.
We did a pulse check on each other to see where we were in our own grief.
As I sat, listened, and loved on each of them, I was shown that none of us live in a time of complete healing. Even years after loss.
We are constantly offering ourselves before God, extended our hearts and our hands asking for healing.
Stretching and growing our whole selves with His help.
I’ve learned over the years, that I can’t do this alone. A journey of grief is harder without His help. I need God, even when I was at the point of suffering through the muddy water and refusing to admit I needed help.
I can’t tell you what all has transpired over the course of the last 10 years, but what I do know is that God healed me, and my daughter saved my life.
I know today that I have a chance for heaven. That may not have been possible 10 years ago.
The woman who I was then is not the woman I am today.
When I realized how much I changed, and seconded it by family the same, it was so disheartening to realize what happens in grief.
The old me died more than 10 years ago when Talon and Emma Grace died.
I could be upset that she doesn’t exist anymore, but to be honest with all you, I like this me much better.
Emma Grace’s did indeed change me, but I know that God restored my withered heart. The rose at the top and the rose below signifies the restoration of my heart. My prayer is that He will restore yours as well.
But we first have to be willing and obedient to stretch our your withered heart, and invite Him in.