Somber Saturday

Today is Somber Saturday. The day before the resurrection. The day for us bereaved parents that really feels like not just one day, but a life-time until we enter eternity. I know for me, my Triduum lasted way more than 3 days before I felt the Joy of Easter.

The Resurrection seemed to be what only Christ did, and I never saw it in the light that I too could resurrect out of my grief.

But what if there is beauty in those ashes?

What if God makes something beautiful out of you and me?

I could not see my passion, and resurrection in my grief. I looked at Talon and Emma’s death as being finite, and my hope was diminished. It wasn’t until I shared my testimony at an Ultreya meeting that someone shared that they saw the passion in our story, that sent me for a loop.

I never thought that our story could even come close to Jesus’ passion. I guess maybe because I felt so unworthy to consider that we too could experience this transformation. But way back in Genesis God says He created us in His image, and if I believe that to be true; then I know that we can resurrect out of our suffering.

But this thought for so long was in my head, I knew it to be true, but I did not feel it in my heart.

What did that mean for me?

I left that meeting that night with a burning desire to reread all the accounts of the passion, and so I did, but this time specifically looking at it trying to find my story in the pages of scripture.

I was amazed to watch how God allowed my suffering to bring life into the story of Christ. I journeyed through scripture with Jesus, and witnessed my own passion, and resurrection.

I can’t begin to describe to you what this did for me, and like St. Paul the scales came off of my eyes, and shed to the floor. God met me deep in my suffering and revealed my resurrection to me, but gently because I couldn’t handle it all at once.

That’s what He desires for you.

What does tomorrow hold for you?

Instead of fear, I want to trust. God help me to trust more.

Instead of doubt, I want to believe. God help me to believe more.

Instead of giving up, I will stand firm. God help me to have unwavering strength.

You are writing my resurrection story for me Lord. Will I allow you to unveil it to me?

Tomorrow may we all commit to Christ to allow Him to bring us to the Resurrection, fully and knowingly, in our hearts, and in our soul. Lord may we always know that you will never leave us in the midst of our pain.

God desires to help resurrect our ashes into something beautiful creating in us a new resurrected glorious body, and soul. A soul that does not disappoint, because of the love of God that pours into us. He will resurrect you too.

“Not only that, but we even boast of our afflictions, knowing that affliction produces endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the holy Spirit that has been given to us.” - Romans 5:3-5

Kelly Breaux